I just wanna be in pain,
all depressed, stay alive but also die.
Die in pieces and pauses,
So I can feel human for just one time.
In a hope that I'll be cared for,
Atleast one time,
I'll feel loved.
So let me be the women that
I can't be otherwise,
Let me be this strong this time.
And don't tell me that everything will be fine!
Let me crawl into the the arms of darkness,
Let my claustrophobia die down,
Inside the closet let me be
with doors all closed.
Let me see the death of all my dreams
Let me wry for all that I hoped.
So I can start fresh,
Make new ones or not at all,
But don't leave me hanging onto what can't be achieved.
And if anything,
Don't try to ruin the will in me.