If you want to love me, if you really want to be close with me then there is something you need to know about. I cry often, I cry reading novel, I cry listening to sad songs and I cry at night, when no one knows. And yet I am all cheerful in the morning like never bad anything happend. I am scared, scared to be left all alone, all abandoned. I am afraid, afraid of the darkness from where I will never be able to come back. I am selfless because I know that this world needs love to be a better place to live. There are many friends who betrayed me and did hurt me but I will still love them. And you know I love eating food, when I am in a bad mood I hogg at my food like there is no tomorrow. And when I love someone I do it with all my heart. If I love you then I will love you with whatever I have, I may be idiotic sometime, not able to understand what you say, but I will always understand the pain in your eyes, when inspite of having tasty food infront of your eyes, you donot eat it, when something is bothering you, I will understand. I will know your pain through your texts and the words you are going to utter. Its only my friends and family For whom I am living. Many people said that be a little selfish but I still dont see the reason to be one. I still dont see the reason to put up a fake mask. I would donate the money I earn rather than spending it on the people who donot deserve it. And at the end even if ever a situation comes when you want to leave me, i will never stop you, I will never try to change you, i will let you go, it will hurt me but I know that your happiness can still make me the happiest girl alive. I will still love you with everything and when the rain drops will caress my face, it will always be you I will imagine. Even if you decide to leave me, just know that I will be here waiting for you even at the dead dark and cold midnight. But before falling in love with me, know that I am not as strong as I pretend to be, I am not as carefree as I show, and I know I am just a mess, but it will be beautiful If I can become YOURS mess.