From the morning , when I opened my eyes , I am trying.
I am trying to keep them open and dry , because I am afraid , I will not be able to hold back my tears anymore.
I am trying to shush out my mind , while it is replaying all the words that were thrown at me , because I am afraid that each word will break me.
I am trying not to care about some people , I am trying to let go , because somewhere , in the long run , I am afraid I will lose myself.
I am trying not to dream of my mother's lap or my lover's shoulder , where I could have rested in peace , because I am afraid , I'll be too weak.
I am just trying ,
I am trying not to be afraid anymore.