(The Bad-the Good)
Can I look at Love with different eyes like the girl that I was when I was thirteen? Now that we're on our own different lives so many years after. I still haven't forgotten how amazing a being you were(at least the sides I thought I knew) and then what you turned out to be. It wasn't difficult for you; moving on, finding others. I, on the other side, am still so torn between being alone and those 'together forevers'. I am scared getting emotionally close to anyone else now, I'm an emotional chaos: because when you left, the friendships broke too. All those dark, disturbing thoughts from long ago creep into my mind, making me have trust and abandonment issues again and again. The wicked echoes of the past aren't silent while I'm just so close to starting a anew. It was all about levels and we weren't mentally on the same page too. It was love's fault. When I thought you broke my heart, you actually ripped apart the barriers between my faith and I. Yes, I can look at Love differently now. Accepting Love, as it comes, in all different facets, I understand how it should have actually been then and that it wasn't. I only wish you well.