PriVaCy~Behind the 4 walls..
"You are mine, only mine! But I am for all,” winked Arjun.
What should I say bout him. The more I say, the more I fall for him. He was like a magnet, attracting people every now and then. His charm, his charisma, he was like a sketched character.
“No, I can’t share you with anybody!” exclaimed Meira.
Her voice reflected a slight pain as if she wanted to cry and hug him. But, there was something which stopped her. May be it was PRIVACY that stopped her from expressing herself. Privacy, which allowed her to be someone whom she couldn’t define at all.
Meira, a young talented young lady. She was in her twenties (perfect age), when she fell for Arjun, the stud! The entire college was lit up by their story.
“Arjun-Meira,” be like them, they look so perfect! I mean, Meira is caring, understanding. Arjun is so loving, pacifying, and understanding. They are just the perfect couple one could ever dream of.
After one year-
“Arjun, please, please speak up. If you love someone else, just speak up. Believe me, I…..I…wo… (stopped Meira, swallowing the salty tears which had formed at the back of her throat). Please, Arjun, Please.”
Meira turned around, trying to hide the tears from him. Arjun hugged her from the back and tightened his arms around her.
“I love you. Please I am sorry. I just need time. Please,” expressed Arjun.
Meira couldn’t see Arjun cry. This was happening recently, this feeling, this feeling of pain for somebody else, she felt for the first time. She held Arjun’s hand, and kissed it. They both hugged each other tightly.
Arjun, removed the locks of hair from Meira’s face and tried to kiss her. Meira, with a nonchalant smile, turned around and went two steps away from him. She was smiling, she was nervous, she was sweating even under the pleasant winds of the AC.
Arjun went near her, and kept his hand on her neck, gently removing the hair he planted a kiss on her neck. Meira closed her eyes and allowed herself to feel the emotion.
It was a feeling which changed her life completely.
“I love you,” said Meira. Resting her head on Arjun’s chest, she rubbed the tears from her eyes.
“Love you,” said Meira, looking at him with teary eyes and a blushing smile. Arjun kissed on her forehead and hugged her back.
Things were going really well and smooth. Slowly and fortunately they both crossed another year, and another, and another…..3 years completed.
“You are spying on me?” shouted Arjun. His eyes reflecting a negative emotion.
“Wowhh! You are flirting with others, and when I am catching you red handed, you are actually, blaming me? Like really Arjun?” expressed Meira, breathing heavily.
“How dare you peep into my account! I have a PRIVACY concern, and you…you don’t trust me at all,”expressed Arjun. Lighting another piece of a ciggerate , he sat down on the bed and stared at the window.
Meira, as usual, melted yet again!
“No, I trust you. Believe me, I do trust you. Please look at me,”cried Meira.
Deep inside, she felt really miserable and started blaming herself. But what was her fault?? If her boyfriend, who she considered her everything, for whom she sacrificed her best friend and all other hand countable friends, had been repeating the same mistake every year and innumerable amount of times, what could she do!
What could she do? Being a girl, her world was really small. And, it is true that, when a girl gets a boyfriend, she decides to give the relationship the required time it needs to bloom. It was the last choice she choose, to seek the truth! She also wanted to know, what was it.
A girl never loves spying on her boyfriend. Especially when she has to breach her facebook account and hunts for informations .
But she was helpless!
She could feel that Arjun was not there with her..
She could feel he was hiding many things
She could feel he was bored.. She never wanted to be just a responsibility in his life..
She just wanted to hear the truth from Arjun's mouth...
Arjun’s flirting was more or less equal to extra marital affairs.
5 Years later
“I am sorry,” expressed Arjun.
“Hmm,” said Meira.
“How many times shall I forgive you for your same mistakes?” questioned Meira, staring blankly at him.
Meira loved him immensely. She only wanted him to speak the truth. If he ever flirted or crossed his limits, she wanted it to hear it from his mouth.
She never wanted him to make up stories, and to cover those stories make another stories.
She never wanted to change him, she just wanted him to feel the sorry and not just say it..
But Arjun,neither he told the truth nor he said meant sorry...
Few Months Later. A Week Before Meira’s Birthday.
“Look it is not working out. If I couldn’t change myself in the last 5 years, how can I do it in the next 50 years?” expressed Arjun.
“So, what do you want,” asked Meira. Her eyes were trying hard to stop the tears, her heart felt like it would burst now.
“I am feeling choked. I need SPACE,” said Arjun.
“OK,” texted Meira.
One month later, Meira saw Arjun with another girl.
She was fair, a bit short, cute, and most importantly she was Arjun’s current interest. She looked into Arjun’s eyes, and though to herself-
“So this was the PRIVACY he was talking about. Hmmh . Time to walk and catch the bus.” thought Meira, clutching her hair into a bun.
Does she miss him anymore??Well, YES. She does. She allows herself to feel the emotions, no matter how hard or difficult it is. Instead of running away, she allows the tears to roll down whenever it wanted to.
The Girl With Specs.