Cursed : Heart and Mind.
Jealousy haunts you.You look for signs everywhere.Love becomes a disease,a madness.Crazy thoughts run through your head all day and all night. No, you can't protect yourself from heart break and betrayal.Insecurity gnaws you from inside.
Imagine this feeling amplified 100x times.
That's a person with anxiety in love!
You see no value in you. You place it in somebody else. You see no reason to be happy. It takes an insane amount of energy to pretend to be normal. You feel empty and dark. No sunshine, no storm. You feel lonely and insignificant. Nightmare laced sleep is your only respite. Sometimes,you don't feel at all.
Imagine this amplified 1000x times. That's a depressed person in love!
You latch on to the person like a person who is drowning in darkness and uncertainty. Sometimes you latch on too tight ,they can't move.
Sometimes you try to let go, you can't move. You are filled with self loathing. You wish you could stand alone brave and unmovable by whatever life throws at you.
You can't stand.
You can't imagine this!
Unless you are an anxious, depressed person in love!
You are accused of being lazy or unmotivated or seeking for attention. You are declared incapable of love and warmth. You feel life has no meaning or purpose. Somedays, you start believing that all this might be true!
Your mind has turned against You.
Your heart is set on self destruct mode.
Your body is murdering you!