you were the same height as papa,
with a bright smile
you asked me to play with you.
mamma used to tell me not to talk to strangers
i told you that I will ask my mamma
but the smile on your face, turned into a frown.
uncle, i got scared. i said sorry.
papa used to hug me, when i apologized for a mistake.
but the way you pulled my hand,
uncle, i got scared.
were you going to punish me?
but all I asked was to get
permission from mamma.
why did that bother you?
you looked gentle.
i cried , i thought you would
leave my hand, my wrist was
hurting from your tight grip.
but you pushed me into a car,
uncle, where were you taking me?
i wanted to go back home.
uncle, i was crying. i was hungry
and i was scared.
you slapped me and
covered my mouth.
my screams died inside my mouth.
uncle, when you stopped the car,
i thought you'd take me back to mamma.
but there was no home, only a forest full of trees.
uncle, it was starting to get dark, mamma would have been preparing dinner.
uncle i wanted to go home,
you pulled me out of the car
and threw me over your shoulder.
you ran too fast, my head started spinning.
uncle, my heart was beating loudly.
was it scared, too?
you said it would be easy.
when I had to get an injection
mamma used to tell me to count to 10.
that it would be easy .
but uncle, when you pierced by body,
i counted till 10, the pain didn't subside.
i counted till 100, 1000 .....
uncle i forgot the next number.
i looked into your eyes,
you looked wicked and hungry.
my legs became numb but
you didn't stop.
Uncle, i saw blood running down my legs,
uncle i was scared to death.
when you stopped , i thought it was over.
but you stifled my neck.
i was breathing rough already, why did you stop my hampering breath?
uncle, don't ever wish to have a daughter.
for i , was your daughter, too.
You should have let me live,
so that i could help you.
i would have asked my papa to
give you some food and shelter,
so that you didn't have to eat and
cut another child ever.