His chest tightened, he felt like he couldn't breathe, guilt was weighing him down. He ran out of the room, out of the house- the house was falling upon him it felt. He stopped running when he was waist deep into the ocean. He just wanted to put his head under the water and drown. But he knew it was a waste, this would hurt her even more. It would leave her alone again. He was mad with fury and pain. He stood like that in the water for God knows how long, crying, but the pain wouldn't go away. When he couldn't bear it anymore, he screamed and screamed until he felt like his lungs would burst. He pulled at his hair and sat down in the ocean, water reaching upto his neck.