You hate it, don't you? Even at a party, it is the end that you despise. You just want that moment to continue forever. For me, it was the 4 years I spent in this place called MIT.
It feels like yesterday that I was walking towards my class, like an apprehensive little kid, trying to figure out what was going on around me. The hullabaloo that usually accompanies the new college year was scary, instead of making me feel at home. I walked into my class and what I saw calmed me down a little. I saw 80 more kids who were going through the exact same emotions that I was. I thought to myself, "Well.. Looks like all of them seem to be like you. You're gonna fit in here".
The introvert inside me wasn't quite sure. After all, it had always been difficult for me to make new friends at a new place and this seemed no different. But college does wondrous things to you. My usual tongue-tied self seemed to have found a life of its own and before I knew it, a week had passed and I had already gone through what felt like losing a part of myself when my new friend said that she was quitting.
Fast forward 3 years. After that one week, it all seemed very easy. Be it fests or controversies or even some major crushes, these 3 years had everything. And then the realization hit. The countdown had begun. It felt like I had so much left to do with so little time left. And time seemed to have wings because by the time I realized all that I wanted to do, it was time for the farewell. The first reminder that my time here is up. Old friends meeting up and reliving old memories, trying to capture every single moment together in a photo so that they could immortalize their friendship for life.
I was still coming to terms with this when the second alarm sounded. The class photoshoot. Your last chance to have fun with the people you spent the last 3 years with. Yes. I went all out but there was still something lacking. Maybe it was because I was still living in denial about this whole "The end" stuff.
This place is what made me the person I am today. It gave me a purpose in life. It gave me people who are going to stay for the rest of my life and people who told me how all that glitters is not gold. It gave me memories that will make a great flashback reel in my last moments.
It was my farewell but I never said goodbye.