DEXIETY- THE MENTAL ENEMY
Depression and anxiety are something which are the most common disorders our generation has, which makes me really sad. I mean not the kind of depression where you just overthink at times and you cry sometimes at night. By anxiety, i don't mean getting nervous before an exam or an important event. Feeling all of the above is just human , and negative emotions are a part of all of us.
Depression and anxiety make you dysfunctional
specially when you have both of them at the same time. Your depression will make you lay down in the bed and make you feel exhausted, whereas your anxiety would make you feel guilty for doing so. Your depression will cause you to distant yourself from the world, and your anxiety will make you think that your friends would hate you for it. Depression is like a cloud over your head which could come anytime, it drains away your energy and it makes you feel completely helpless. You're in the middle of a crowd and all of a sudden this darkness swallows you. You don’t even know why, it makes you feel isolated even in a crowd. You just want to run away from everything and everyone. At times you spend hours on just contemplating your entire existence, and sometimes you feel nothing. It's like a deep well, of never ending hollowness which consumes you. You can't explain your anxiety and depression in words. It's not as beautiful as it looks in the poems or those posts, with these illnesses, comes paranoia, constant self hatred, physical sickness, and what not. It's not like somebody could just love you away with it, only the person going through this excruciating pain, who is a part of this agony knows what actually goes on inside. Take this advice, and never say things like '' snap out of it'', '' don't overthink '', ''it's not real'' or tell someone to chill with it. If you actually want to deal with someone, say things like '' I'm here for you'', '' you aren't alone in this'' '' it's okay, your feelings are valid'' and then listen to them further. Make efforts to see them, to care for them and try to accept their irrational thoughts, and unpredictable behavior as a part of the routine at times.
To all of you going through such illnesses, it's not your fault, and you are going to fight this when you find enough strength inside you, everything will take its time.
Put in the baby steps, this journey will be a bumpy road, but this is going to take you somewhere beautiful. You're gonna come out of this storm as a much better person, i know you are afraid, but darling hold on, hold on till you discover your wings and learn to fly. Every cocoon takes time to crack and let a beautiful thing develop, this is you, your time inside this cocoon building up into something extraordinary ❤️