Honestly it feels really nice to be able to admit admiration,
I am proud of you even if the thought of you still pisses me off sometimes,
I appreciate and accept your apologies,
I do want you to heal and be happy even if its without me.
I do worry sometimes that your shadow will come through and cut into someone else,
But that's not my battle anymore,
I'm no longer interested in settling the score,
Lately I've been breathing easier not carrying that burden of hate,
Although a piece of me is still bitter,
I can feel it leave more each day.
I'm gaining much better control over my thoughts and emotions,
I still have a lot to work on,
We all do,
No one is perfect.
I'm beginning to realize this more as well,
Everyone has flaws,
It's being able to find beauty in the cracks and chips that rest inside us,
That's where true strength resides.
Even after all of this has happened,
After all is said and done,
I still love you and I can admit that happily,
Maybe one day we can see one another again without acting like savages.
I would like that,
Maybe one day.