I opened my eyes. The only vision that I had was the blurred images of the monitor showing a few numbers. The bleep bleep of the monitors reached my ears. I tried to move my torso but couldn't. Various tubes, pins and needles were sticking out from my body making it impossible to lift myself up. I tried to call out but the sound was drowned in my throat. There were 2 tubes, one in my nose which reached up to my jejunum, delivering a white liquid containing nutrients and another in my throat which was connected to the bellows outside, pumping oxygen into my lungs. I was sinking and I knew it. Suddenly, a chill and rigor send shivers down my spine. I was convulsing and shivering. I saw the horrified faces of my husband, a sister and the monitors showing 19, 20, 21 and 22 before I blacked out in the chilly and deserted intensive care unit.I heard a nasal voice calling out "Tonight", to me.