Chuckles to fate laughs
An old saying right, good girl always falls in love with a bad guy. Well, ironically felt stupid to hear such a stereotyped statement. But, kind of made sense gradually. Every sensible, smart girl just slips into this unknowingly, though she felt like magic. Who have always been wise in decisions, oops, what went wrong here?! Nature’s pity laughs though. A life changing event which is supposed to be memorable, but ended up a memory. At least a good memory?! Haha. Nah. Who are you kidding?!
It felt all real, whoa. Now that you stand wondering if its the same person you actually thought you knew a couple of months back. So yeah, everything was going well right? The best love dove period of one’s life? Had present lighted up and future planned? Sure, delusions can be funny at times. A period where you blamed the other person for turning your life into a misery to an actual alarm striking period of questioning yourself, How drunk was I, probably?! Times when God thinks, aye this sweet little child of mine had all good things in her way, lets mess it up a little. Felt like a lesson learnt by compulsion. Inevitable. When did friction actually happen? Oh sure, when you were jaws drop serious. Yeah right, how can one be blamed there?! Being serious is a crime which deserves forehead shrink and capital punishment. It was a mistake to not read the sign boards correctly. That only a fling was intended. Oh, funny people, who be serious.
Aye, it was a blissful joy to hear the ex’s name in every breath. Almost had tears of joy thinking how blessed . Sure, who doesnt have a past here?! We all were asked to leave the past behind right before we get into something else in the present. Poor child, had lessons learnt poorly which ended up having interpretation like, go into the present in a trial of learning to get over past. Haha. Yeah, times when you feel your life as a lab rat. Yeah tuck in seat belts, picture time! Ignorance, Arrogance, melodrama on fleek, honey. Times when we cried not even knowing what went wrong. Period of self consolation. And, gradually inch by inch worser than a sloth we tried moving towards salvation. In modern times, called as move on. You thought you were doing well finally after all that sleepless nights and aimlessly stare into nothing days.
Nah, picture wasnt over. When the person finally picks up gut to be honest with you as in why things went wrong. It was merely a past, what harm could it probably do?! Oh may be if it did kind of had an impact in the present it does right?! Little did she know, such horrific incidents of someone else’s past came back to her as a recurrent nightmare. Where finally facade decides to drop. Situations where scapegoat mechanism gets highlighted in the best markers.
I know it feels like you will never fall in love an other time. Honestly because you are scared to get miraculously cheated again. Trust me, you shall still feel it in a purest way if you start with a fresh mind space with no past hauntings and huntings. You still attend calls after all that has happened, its just kindness. Cheers to 13 reasons why, where we decided not to be on anyone’s tape.
Its chill darling, wasnt your mistake, because heart always falls in love in a rebellious form.