Sorrowful beside you but without You.
I was always the first name you'd call. The first one to help. Everytime you ever needed me I was there before you could take s step. Self, to do for me is completely absurd. Because I've lived most of my life doing for others, always telling you to keep faith. It was just a test by God to prove of what we are made. Years go by and I still do the same. But why would I never come out as a gain?? I already knew the answer. It was always my fault. Maybe I should have just stayed in my head. With thoughts locked like a vault. Whenever I needed support nobody came to lend hands. So fuck it I'm stuck forever no help from woman or man. I'm tired of loving why should I care, to you I'm a ghost as transparent as air. Give my love a wave and say farewell old friend, because love is a mistake I'll never be making again. And I'm happier, but really I'm not !! I've done everything I could ever do, and I know I wasn't always true but one thing that was always the truth... Ever since our eyes met the only woman I've ever lived is you. If I'm to be cast away, like trash as a man...Then I'll hurt every single day, until you once again take my hand. I'm just a person I'm no machine made of steel. But, if this is the way that it has to be then no more love I will weild. So there you have it spelled out in black and white. If you only wanted me and I only wanted you then why on Earth do we fight. Words are my weapon but I would never intend to do harm to the only woman I've ever loved since my grandmother died in my arms.