The Melancholy (part 6)
"Would you like to be my friend?"
Was all what I could manage to say.
An admirer of you,
In silence I gazed
At your brown eyes’ stellar profoundness.
“It’s an unsuitable time,
This distance too endless an ocean to conquer.”
Astonished was I receiving your answer,
The resonance of your sound
Knocked my ears again and again
How indifferent yet restlessly you said.
My heart, my unsaid words... how you read..!!!
Sudden stream of tears came down my eyes
Fear of losing you... possessed my heart,
“Then why they say,
Love is to love only
What meaning it really holds within..?
Making me unnerve
These constraint feelings.
If I say it was destined
For you to be you
And I to be I,
Then would you realize..?
That we’re soul mate,
We’re companion for life...”
My words... I couldn’t finish,
My voice trembled.
Leaving a blank glance with thoughtless eyes
You put on the earphone of your music player
And then went away.
Went away without saying anything
Through the path of my inconsolable mind,
Yet all of a sudden you stopped
Again losing the trace of path,
You called me looking back
With an earnest confused heart.
I went running towards you
And you held my hands...
“I have missed you endlessly
And I will miss you again,
Please don’t go away...”
Escaped from my lips.
Listening to my yearning request
You put your hands on my head,
Your hesitant eyes seized mine
With an affectionate gaze
From that my heart shall never escape.
In that moment
Setting sunbeams fell on your face,
The face in which I have found infinite peace
The peace I never found anywhere else.
I saw you and said for another time
“Please don’t go away...”...
But you remained silent.
Leaving my hand
You turned back to walk away,
With your every step
That was taking you away from me,
I felt the subtle breeze
Was bidding you an apparent goodbye...
While the fallen leaves
Followed you as my harbinger,
And I shouted
“I’ll wait for you tomorrow...”
My voice resounded
Through the deep of this woodland,
Until the time
From my sight you disappeared.
I kept staring
At the path you left behind and went on,
A strange euphoric pain felt my heart
I was standing on the verge of
Having you or losing you forever,
Like the black-bee robs nectar from flower
You took away everything of mine
All that was concealed in my heart
My confessions perhaps left me empty ‘n blank,
And my mind immersed itself
In your thoughts
Walking back in those days....
When I a little girl then first saw my destiny
As you stood before me
Being the gentle dawn of winter
Spreading your smile
Like the first rays of Sun in the eastern sky,
Clearing away all incoherence of mist
Your astral light fell on my eyes,
That was the first time I saw you.
Years passed since then
But my eyes never knew
To be tired of seeing you,
You were never in front of me in reality
Instead you taking over my soul
Like a beautiful dream lived in my eyes for the eternity.
Never understood what the feeling was
That I felt for you so intensely
Your pain struck my heart
Like a severe agony,
Your anguish rained being my tears.
One smile in the corner of your eyes...
How they made my days,
Your laugh being music to my ears
Brought to me immense happiness,
My heart went on with the rhythm of life
Carrying you within unknowingly.
Drawing and painting your portrayal
With pastels of my imagination
In canvas of the endless sky.
Veiled in myself, you were to me
More than a thought, but less than reality.
Ascetic, silent yet with a prevailing presence
Your existence in my life was like a mountain.
But what the name to be given
To those emotions
Were unknown as always.
Like the unknown stream from hills
Comes down without knowing where to reach.
Unaware was I that
For you when I became so ardent.
Every second, every moment
I felt you
Even in my mind’s haze.