'I should make myself believe that this won't work out', they say.
And I'll feel better and less broken,
I'm trying more than I can,
But it's making me lose control,
Making me want to do those reckless things I shouldn't do,
I wanted to cry, but whenever it happens,
I shut it down,
I close that wall even though it tears me from inside,
A part of me wants to break down and get through this,
But another part of me wants me to suffer,
And i think,
I'm in my own PERSONAL HELL..!!!!!