The ringing of the triangle
I closed my eyes with no choice and was swallowed up by darkness which was unavoidable, I stood still for a few seconds and I hear the sound of a loud bell which I than covered my ears cause the sound was horrific and echoed on so long, and in the distance I see a shroud walking from a great distance, I felt a great fear blanket my entire body as the air grew cold, I could see my breath and could feel my lips beginning to crack as the shroud got closer.
Slowly getting closer and only getting colder, and in its white chalky hands it held a triangle and small rusty iron mallet, it stopped five feet infront of me and I felt my body fall limp and went down to my knees, I began to cry and could feel my tears freeze midway down my face, the shroud than hit the triangle with the rusty mallet and the loud sound shook the very dark ground below and I felt my body forcefully bow down while crying with a Shakey whimpering voice, the fear was so great and unlike anything I have ever felt.
Under my own cold voice I managed to let a few words escape my voice box "why am I here...." While frozen tears built up on and around my eyes, I pushed off the blackened ground and looked up to the faceless shroud "why?" And it stood there looking at me, than it came down to my level on its own knees and set the bell and mallet down between us, it slowly raised its hands to my face as I shivered even more, its cold touched numbing my skin and it pushed away the ice tears from my eyes.
Looking with fear where eyes should be and it spoken to me "you child, young child are here by your own hand, you made the choice to take your own life and I am merely here to take you for judgment, no mercy from me for I am just the bringer" it's voice was strong and soft at the same time, the sound seemed like multiple voices all at once which seemed soothing, and I replied "I had no choice, I'm sorry! Please give me one more chance! I'm sorry!" And it stood up looking down at me as I looked up with more freezing tears "please!!!"
And it replied "I am just the bringer, there is no mercy from me child" and he picked up the mallet and bell "one more ring from the triangle will reveal that if you are ready for judgment or not, stand to your feet child, assume your stance" and I cried even harder while trying to catch my running breath, I begged more and more and after a few moments I had to accept my fate, there was no looking back, I put one foot on the ground and pushed myself up to my feet and took one last breath and wiped my icy eyes and stood staring at the shroud, and it moved its hand to the side, slowly about to ring the triangle for the third time.
I closed my eyes while lowering my head, ready to face eternity of bliss or hell, standing there waiting for that loud sound of that triangle but it never came, and when I slowly opened my eyes I woke up in a hospital bed with bandages on my arm and wrist, I screamed and a few nurses came rushing in doing their best to calm me down and after a few seconds I finally realised where I was....
Was it all a dream? I wasn't sure what had happened, and yes I did try to take my own life, that was four days ago
But that dream was beyond too real if it really was a dream at all, if it wasn't than I was given my chance to live once more, but I shudder to think of what if I did hear that last ring of the triangle? just hearing any kind of ring brings that same fear I felt in that dark place back into my heart and now I know better, I know to cherish life and not to try another suicide attempt again.... I pray for anyone who goes through the same experience and does hear that last haunting third ring, I can only pray they don't meet death face to face like I did.