Sirens blaring in the distance, the pain on my soul weeps
The knowledge that they're gone from my life,
Someplace far away She sleeps.
I thought I had it all but all at once I found I was lacking ,
So much so it sent the fear inside of me screaming away, packing .
In my heart of hearts I knew I had done wrong,
Just not the way they think , the drink had deceived me all along.
Intoxication was my dessimation, proving wrong my proclamation that I was better .. so weak when I thought I was so strong .
I tried to speak but words had failed,
The bloody wounds sealed, my cross had been nailed.
They thought I was someone else but I was just scared , I was fighting for my life yet I was unprepared.
Now I'll never see those smiling faces again ,
Only because I tried to be a better man.
They will hate me until the end of days,
Even though I'm changing , my very spirit rearranging they will never trust the thrust of what I am saying because the truth is in these words I am publicly displaying .
I never lied,
I couldn't lie to you
I only tried to find out
Why you were feeling blue
But every time I tried
The password to your heart
Was constantly denied.
I am not alone ,
As I sit here at home ,
Remembering your laugh
At the mooning garden gnome.
I'll just have to get used to
Not seeing you again,
I'll have to say goodbye,
I'll miss you my friend .