MY OWN SHADES OF BLACK AND WHITE
Someone said to me, "When you become a better human being people will be back."
That was the time I realised that I am pretty good the way I am.
I do not need anyone to think I am good enough for them.
I just have to be amazing for myself.
I have to be true to my emotions.
I don't have to run anymore, I don't have to try and fit anymore.
I just have to be myself.
I have my own shades of black and white, my own shades of good and bad and I love those.
I am much better than those people who are scared of their feelings, love, life and trust.
Yes, I get attached easily to anyone and it hurts as fuck when they leave.
Yes, I am that girl who you hurt 10000 times and the 10001 time, I'll be there for you again.
Yes, I am the person who gets laughed at the way I think , but its okay.
I won't change it for the world.
I won't because not everyone is strong enough. Not every one has this big a heart (Biologically, I have a strong limbic system not a big heart). Yeah, I am that strong, and I love it.
No one can be me because its not easy. Its not easy waiting up for those who won't come and not getting tired. Its not easy to not to lose hope. Its not easy to love friends the way I do. Its not easy to have so deep feelings. Its not easy to be dedicated to long lost relationships.
Yes its stupid, but this is who I am. This is how madly and insanely I take my relationships with people.
I am crazy about the people who stay with me and crazier about those who leave.
I've realised, in the end, even if I end up alone, no one liking me for who I am,
I will be fine..
It will be scary , but I will be fine.
At least I'll be honest to my morals.
At least I'll be fair to my feelings.