I wake up thinking today will be a good day.
But then it hits me,
No day will ever be a good day for me.
Every time it hits, it hurts,
Hurts that I can never be normal,
Hurts that I cannot be like everybody else,
Hurts that I can shatter people with just a touch.
Oh, how I wish those dark shadows looming over me would disappeared ,
How I wish I could keep these dark thoughts at bay,
How I wish someone could see behind my happy face,
Oh, how i wish.
I don't even know myself anymore,
These thoughts have buried me, and taken over the leftover bits of me.
These thoughts like fragile black clouds that are always lingering around me.
Just a touch is enough to break these clouds.
Sometimes they break into thunder,
Sometimes into rain,
Sometimes into a hurricane.
But no one notices but me.
No one notices these bloodshot eyes,
No one notices these tear stained cheeks,
No one notices this broken me.