I'll tell you what real heartbreak feels like,
It's the feeling that you've seen their face at the crowded station,
It's the fact that whether you're drunk or sober they're on your mind,
It's passing their house and resisting the urge to check on them,
It's missing them even when you're the busiest,
It's your 2am dreams about their memories,
It's backspacing all your texts and not sending them,
It's those times your heart physically ached and your eyes wouldn't stop flooding,
It's giving away and destroying everything materialistic they gave you because it makes you feel uneasy,
It's being unable to get emotionally involved with anyone else,
It's your inability to explain to anyone else about how you're feeling,
It's trying everything to release their memories and yet not getting over them,
It's that little ray of hope,
That maybe it'll all be alright again.
-Things I'd never say to him.