Did you ever face that overwhelming feeling of despair and hopelessness? Have you ever felt like you're drowning and with every passing second you're going in and in? Have you ever been in a place from where you can't take a step back or move forward, like you're tied down by a huge weight at the damn place while every cell in your body is screaming to leave? Ever felt like the world is closing up on you and you're left gasping out for next breath and thrashing around to survive?
If you did, you'd understand my irrational tendencies of getting high or my desperate attempts to harm myself.. I'm not weak. I'm not a coward who's running away when things get hard.. It's just that I'm tired.. So fucking tired that I need a quick release.. Release of pain, anger, betrayal... Forget everything for once and feel free.. I'm not weak. I'm not a coward. I'm just tired.