Have you felt this ever?
You can't breathe.
It's like taking in air but mixing it with the poison within, running in the blood, going to the brain, messing with the reality, the fiction, the dreams, messing with the thinking process, the analysis, the ability to judge, triggering your memories, your ego, your heart, you as a whole.
With every breath, you feel heaviness, pain, guilt, anxiety, agony. All of a sudden you don't feel anything. You don't feel who you are. You are numb. Quiet. Staring straight ahead, into nothingness. Again, you feel something, you feel the rush. You are running behind a memory, trying to catch hold of it, it's leading you to more darkness, more numbness, more confusion. You are able to feel the emotional less you. You are able to see the hurt, hear your silent screams, again breathing in another dose of poison, feeling how it's slowly killing you.