Caffeine is her
I am a man, a man with a mind full of words that are left unsaid, self-doubts, sadness, and her, basically, fucked up in all cases. I may look fine and strong but I am not, i am as fragile as every person in the world. I got no real friends to trust, and I know that i only need is myself.
Sleeping is a problem for me, can't even seem to close my eyes confidently at night, I always have my books beside me just incase I got bored with my applications in my smartphone, and a cup of coffee. I dont know why I drink coffee at midnight, like who ever does that besides me? maybe or probably students who have to study their asses just to ace that examination for the next day and I know that its really weird but it is the way I am, I like unusual stuff and I do things like that too.
You see I am not the kind of person you expect me to be, I got issues, and I substitute caffeine as a reverse sleeping pill, to ease my hunger for the usual drug, I became dependent with it, I kill myself ingesting it, its nice though, it makes my head hurt, my stomach churning, my heart palpitates, and my blood gushing extremely to its hyperactive state until I fall asleep, tired and senseless.
But, there's this girl who made me stop my addiction, and she's crazy, a ball of craziness, a real psycho, like me. We got our own problems but she enlightened me, she calms me, we talk for hours at night just before sleep and from there I know that caffeine isnt needed anymore, and from there I know that I just needed her, a pair of brown eyes and a perfect smile. I have never expected someone like her, an incredible combination of insanity and beautiful.