》》 This time 《《
You say things and then claim not to remember just so you don't have to "hear it" or deal with the consequences of your actions.
"I don't know what you're talking about." Was your favorite reply
Of course not I said as I rolled my eyes
"Don't start this."
Don't start what? I asked innocent
But I knew what I was doing, I just couldn't let it go I've never been able to do so. He knows this.
"You always do this bullshit."
Why do you always do things to put us in this position.
You know what why are you all under that girls butt.
Instagram, Facebook, Snapchat
You trying to hit that
"Jesus I know the girl from high school."
And is that an excuse for you to like every pic
Comment you're beautiful and this . Do you know how that looks. Yes you do you just don't care about my embarrsment.
"How the fuck is that embarssing. You get upset about anything. Fucking cry baby."
I have a right to feel How I feel. And I feel like you're being disrespectful to me and our relationship.
" You just want to control me and everything I do."
How by asking you not to give another woman the attention that I'm missing."
"What attention? I'm here everyday am I not?"
Physically half yes. Mentally you're in your phone, emotionally on yourself, and your body is here but you want it to be in someone else because you barely touch me anymore.
"Maybe because you're always nagging me about something. Blah blah this and blah blah that. Bitch get off my back."
WHAT THE FUCK DID YOU JUST CALL ME!
"I didn't mean it like that."
What else would it mean man fuck you.
I'm sick of your shit.
You told me you'd stop last time we talked about this.
"And I also asked you to stop stalking me."
Stalking you how can I stalk a person who supposed to be with me voluntarily. I don't have a gun to your head you can leave I made it clear my needs to stay with me and you agreed. I wouldn't even look so hard if you hadn't blocked me. No one blocks you unless they were hiding something. If only you would be more forthcoming.
"I ain't got shit to hide. I'm just tired of you lurking."
What ever fuck this. This might as well be over.
"You want to be done then be done."
That's not what I said. You're twisting my words.
"No I'm not it. That's it I'm done."
What? I tried not to cry as he said this
"I said I'm fucking done with you, with this, with us."
I knew it you wasted my time waiting for someone else.
"If I didn't want to be with you I wouldn't have."
You haven't been "with me" for years progressively treating me worse and worse emotional and physical abandonment and you set everything up to be my fault so I'd hate myself. Make it seem like I ended it so you have room to come back when you've scratch your itch. You use me and manipulate me because unlike your love mine is real and undeniable and you need it. How could anyone be so cold and calculating to someone who loves them and takes care of them. How could you feel not one ounce of guilt?
"There's nothing to feel guilty about that's why because I'm not doing any of that shit. And I'm not coming back this is it."
That's what you said last time wasn't it and the time before that, and before that, and before that, and before that.
"This time I mean it I've had enough of you. I'm DONE. Don't call me, don't text me nothing."
You walked out and never looked back. I slid to the floor staring at the door until my tears blinded me. I have no idea how long I was there it wasn't until I started dry heaving that I realized and got up. I was a wreck for the 1st, 2nd, 3rd, and 4th month. Seeing him claim her all over social media something he refused to do with me I couldn't believe it. I didn't hear from him until one day he showed up tail between his legs asking for another chance. I asked him Why?
Why are you back what do you want?
"I missed you my life isn't right without you"
You miss me Or the the things I do for she refused to do your laundry, cook for you and fuck the way you want.
"What... How.... How did you know that?"
Because that chick had the nerve to hit me up
asking me have you always been a giant baby and she was about to leave you for her old boo a real man and told me to take your whiny ass off her hands. So she could make a smooth transition back. She did to you what you always do to me played you how does it feel sucks doesn't it. His mouth just hung open it was satisfying to see his humiliation after all mine.
He switched quick licked his lips and smiled.
"But I know you miss this dick."
I did, I really did but there had to me more than that. So I said Yes and I miss us but I'm better off alone.
"Just let me in one more time to say goodbye."
I'm not about to let you dickmatize me again leave please and never comeback.
"Please wait I..."
I closed the door no longer as hurt as before. I'll never be the same atleast I no longer feel the shame of letting my heart make decisions.