That night, in front of the mirror,
The tears in my eyes made my vision clearer,
Trying to control the howl of my cries,
It was difficult to forget the uncovered lies.
Every morning with a renewed hope,
I opened the knot and shoved away the rope.
Only to be defeated every night,
Tempted to stop running and give up the fight.
I think of all the times people told me,
Spill your sorrows and you'll feel free.
But the fear inside me is rooted deep,
So no one wipes my tears when I weep.
I romanticize the past,
Believing good times don't last.
Wondering if it's worth another chance,
The pain in my wrist brings me out of my trance.
I look at the blood dripping on the floor,
Dismayed, I see my mom walk in through the door,
The fear shone bright in her eyes,
And she held me crying till sunrise.
A pathetic letter was clenched in my fist,
For a perfect suicide note doesn't exist.
And when death failed me, I realised,
If life gives you lemons, don't be surprised.
With your suicide, someone will die alive,
For their sake, you'll have to survive.
So let the demons burn in your light,
Never to return in the darkness of night.