Anti Guilt Potion
I let it happen this one time
Actions align to intentions malign,
From sane to immoral, I became
Falling in my own eyes with shame. .
Desires have always driven me
Although never were they so malicious
And cult hedonist I soon became,
Withered away, but knew it was obvious. .
Remorseful as wax I was effacing
Yet, did not wish to revoke
For there was a promised fulfillment
Even in the dilemma I was facing. .
It was only my desires which took me to gallows
Made me stand there and speak of my sins as delinquent,
As my heart never did allow and mind did not give it's consent. .
To know how someone can cheat with another,
I cheated with myself.
To know how someone can hurt someone,
I hurt myself. .
It is tough, to easily fake love
because its a feeling, its an emotion
How others do it, I'll still never know, however
In my case I drink anti-guilt potion.