He promised many times it will not happen again and I really believed him because I have loved him all along and have decided to put the past behind us and we moved on but what does sorry mean if it doesn't really happen again.
That night after so many persuasions not to leave that room for just me, I was scared, I needed a company,i want to hug him tight as I sleep,i want him to cuddle me and look me in the eye and tell me he still loves me.
I was angry at him earlier because he believed what his friend said and he was pushing me to go sleep because he doesn't want me to catch him smoking with his friends,i tossed around the bed trying to catch some sleep even when the sleep ain't coming.
It was morning already and then he walked into our room,he saw my face and then he said "this is not the woman I know".i couldn't hide the anger inside me, I wanted him to see what it was like to feel betrayed.i look him in the face when he asked what is wrong with you all I could find myself saying was "nothing".he knew me too well that he said."Look me in the eye and tell me that it is nothing" I couldn't look because I know I have not lied to this man who I have decided to stay with all my life.