Avoiding things is my second nature, avoiding people being my first. I don't know why I do it, I just know that I have to. That I need to. Why? To protect myself, to protect myself from something possibly (un)pleasant. Something they might say or how I feel after. I take as long as I physically can, stretch time around itself, before I do it (rarely). I let time go, just let it run out the door in most situations. These being something possibly life altering, for the better. Have I hit the self destruct button in this sense? Or is it that I can live forever by prolonged procrastination?