I am not good at writing such long posts but I tried because I am feeling this right now _______________________________________ See, I never wanted to hurt you. I ignored you just because everytime I speak something, I hurt people. I don't want you to get hurted. You think I do not care But I do. Every time I pass from your house, I check if you reached safely or not? Then from my balcony I check if you slept well or not.
I radiate positive energy as much I can,but I myself am filled with veins that have negative thoughts flowing in them. I trick my brain everytime I smile. But I am afraid darling, that one day at a certain point you'll lose me. But I still dwell on those pics you know? That picture haunts me every night. Those 2 a.m. conversations of ours. How your sleepy red eyes never closed and stared at me lovingly. I left you not because I stopped loving you,but because,I had hurted you like hell.
I never stopped loving you. Everytime your eyes set upon mine, I sensed love and compassion for me. And I always tried be positive you know,around you and your friends,but then when the clock striked on those numbers 2 and 12 (2:00) my mind overflowed with disappointment. I am not disappointed with you dear,am disappointed of what I have become now. How many people's life I have ruined,including myself.
And now my poetry may read sweet as sugar. But you see,everyone believes sugar coated lies. Leaving you may seem a piece of cake for you,but it was like walking on a floor full of nails. The dawn may seem beautiful to you but darling, my mind is covered with so dark thoughts that have seen dawn of hope and my void isn't familiar with light! // But Everyone believes sugar coated lies // @khushu_
That day she told me My love will be colourful And I'll paint your canvas with the most beautiful colours A modern art,will be our love Yet her lips trembled while saying "I love you" Was she having something else in her mind?
I remember her hearing that song in loop "I'll never love again" by Lady Gaga She often said Life is a cacophony,it is chaotic,it is messy But sometimes it's worth hearing! Was her life messy because of me?
At 2 a.m. she sat in my balcony Stargazing. She asked me "Do you know why I love nights?" I had no answer She replied, "Because that's when the cacophonous sound is clearer to me" "Because that's when I feel like confessing" What did she want to confess?
On a cold winterday, she told me "PAIN is like a virus and I am the host who has given a permanent home to it" "I hate love she said!" That day, I could see her eyes drowning in the pain. I could see fear rather than love in her eyes
I wish, I could have realised She feared love She feared that she would lose me All she wished was those silly fights to continue A history so horrible she had, She wanted a perfect present with me She forgot about the future,she forgot love. She didn't want to accept that she had already fallen
Celebrating one year at mirakee! ❤❤ I feel so happy .... Thank you so much everyone for your constant love and support!
When I was 3 years old
I saw An 8 year old girl laughing and brimming with happiness How her mother waited for her near the slide And that smile that could simply melt anyone's heart That I thought was real B-L-I-S-S
When I was 10 years old
I saw A beautiful teenager who battled her life How she gathered money to help her mom survive And how brave she was, never showed tears in her eyes She worked every single day and studied hard That I thought was real H-A-R-D-W-O-R-K
When I was 15 year old
I saw An adult who mourned the loss of her beloved mom How she learned to live without her mom And how she talked to her mom's picture every night She grew up very early and started working That I thought was real C-O-U-R-A-G-E
Undress my soul darling You'll understand my mess An illusion that will leave you in delusion
Open my diary darling You'll lose yourself in my messed verses A poesy so poignant that will leave you awestruck
Visit me in darkness Darling You'll realise that I can live in solidarity A flower that learnt to grow in the dark I am
Kiss my soul darling You'll realise that I am a devil inside an angelic face An angel that once had a beautiful story with a 'not-so-happy-ending' // Leave or stay, my words will always slay // @khushu_
Thank you so much @writersnetwork for the repost happiest _____________________________________________________
1- // Nobody told me that how long it takes to get over someone , you loved so ardently. //
Greet my smile and I'll make you happy but if you kept watching you will sink into my mind . My thoughts like a hovering dawn mist befallen after a summer storm , surround you all in. It's amazing what we're capable of when in love , Soul re-settings to thoughts rearranging.
2- // Nobody told me that we poets are made of misery and in order to remind others their humanity , we gulp it all up. //
We always say have a look around and let gratitude be your guide while we write and die , People live. We suffocate , they breathe .
3- // Nobody told me that we are mere words , hanging on the wall's of others like trophies . //
Our words like a warm coffee in the winters protect and comfort others in grief. We inspire others to create masses and bury pieces of ourselves in the palms of everyone who leaves .