Oh! My mind has not been in peace since the fire was reignited recently, but today I might have experienced it momentarily after I wrote this. I am grateful that I have a voice I can present so clearly and I hope it wouldn't be snatched away just because it couldn't be matched with the most if not all.
These days I feel like I don't see my future here anymore. I feel a longing deep in my core to explore what lies beyond the wide horizon. I am usually the type who take risk on an impulse and I knew that I might just snap out of this torpor and drop everything and fly away. Deep inside I knew I could be selfish for me. But what is always holding me back is the vice of over thinking. I over analyze situations and decisions until doubt and fear creeps in and I feel stuck to where I started. I often imagine the alternate version of myself. Carefree, fearless, full of vivacity and confidence yet somehow indifferent. Even my alter ego couldn't be completely flawless. I knew she exists somewhere. It scares yet exhilarates me that I could do it. I could be her. Take my life by its reins. Catch all the lemons that life throws at me and throw it back to the sky. Forget lemonade, let it rain vodka. I'm going to have an effin* blast! The world may not be round but I am on a roll. The sky is not the limit, space is infinite. So do you and so do I. We are, each an amalgamation of infinite possibilities. -j.s. fabregas//infinite possibilities of you and me