• phoenixy 3w

    For Rose, # 4

    Even now, I cannot let you go.
    I want to let you know that
    You still lay on my desk.
    you are very much alive to me, and
    You are long past death.
    everywhere reminds me of you, even though
    Your sweet scent has faded.
    everyone reminds me that
    You are still in my heart, truly.
    It was never meant to be.

    I wonder how you felt about me.
    Could it be that you could sense

    When I was with you, and when I was not?
    Are you with me?
    When I abandoned you, and when I kept close?
    Are you close?
    When I nurtured you, and when I starved you?
    Are you starved?

    Even now, I cannot let you go.
    Let go of me, if it pleases you, but
    I am ever ready to tell you the truth.
    there is something you need to know, and
    I am ever ready to lie to myself.
    do you wonder, ever wonder, that
    I am ever ready to let you go.
    truly, I still wish to keep you close, and
    I am ever ready to let you know.
    I regret the day I let you go.

    I wonder how you felt about me.
    Could it be that you did feel

    When I appreciated you, and when I resented you?
    Do you resent me?
    When I lost myself in you, and when I found my way home in you?
    Do you lose yourself in me?
    When I loved you, and I failed to tell you?
    Do you love me?

    -Phoenix