another star in the web of forever
Three years of pain, finally the sun broke the rain.
Alone but not ashamed, three years and a day.
It's to bad I don't belong like yesterday.
Dreams of her but who is she?
Taking up space, assuming my place.
the sidelines of life, as i watch everyone fall away.
Three years but feels like yesterday.
no not the pain or a fuckin deranged memory.
this is about me recovering my pride and some sanity.
I lost it all when I laid with the devil.
I gave up on friends, believing in forever.
Tried to be me while bending for another.
See this is the reason I socially retired.
I took those words and made it a forever.
Now I get patrolled and stalked but it's like, whatever.
I shut down harder than ever.
I left the province and tried to re discover.
My purpose my soul and even my smile.
Three years but now I feel like its over.
I don't know where I fit.
Love? what is it?? I don't remember.
I've been friend zoned like it doesn't matter.
i have endured the extortion and subliminal backstabbing, the rumours.
Friends were just enemies, lesser humans with jealous agendas.
I was living in rock bottom for what feels like forever.
I was waiting for the storm to break, awaiting something better.
I saw the sun for the first time and it didn't feel much better.
No longer in pain no, but im still a fucking loner.
No longer guarded but now no one is even looking.
Ready to try and continue this puzzle.
Trapped by my brain and twisted humor.
Ugly but wise, its a package deal.
I give my time and watch as you waste it.
I try really hard to be a social person.
I speak but no one listens.
I answer the phone calls, that's actually a big deal.
The rain lifted i can now bask in surreal.
The sun broke the storm, now I want more than my shadow.