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    I looked at her as she stood down the aisle. Her eyes suddenly met mine and in that moment, I was in love with her.

    "What's your favorite word, Mr. Writer?", she asked one night, caressing my hair.

    "Comet. Yours?"

    She thought for a moment and realized she didn't have a favorite word. I stole glances of her while she was busy doing one thing or another and I wondered if comet was my favorite word or her name.

    When she left me, I was shattered for a while. Coffee tasted bitter, my body would start shivering thinking of her, my nights were empty and insomniac out of pain. She was like a fever that I knew I wouldn't be able to survive.

    "I almost loved you.", she said one fine day.
    I met her after 8 months. She was with a new guy. He was everything I can never be. Sometimes I wonder if people want to end up with someone different, why do they choose us in the first place? Maybe we didn't work out. But if we didn't, why am I still in love with her? Someone told me there's so much more and that love is never enough. But anyway, my love was never enough for her and her lies were still everything to me.

    She should have entered my life like a good one night stand and take her clothes and leave me alone the next morning. But she stayed and said things she shouldn't have. And that has made all the difference.

    Her life was so full of almosts.

    "I am sorry. I almost remembered your birthday but then... "
    "I almost called you."
    "I almost missed you that night."
    "We were almost together."
    "I almost loved you."

    She was never sure of anything. I was her almost. I fought hard for months in order to become her perfect. But I was still an uncertainty in her life. That was all that I could ever be.

    "I have found your favorite word.", I said.
    "Yeah? What is it? ", she asked.
    "Almost."
    "Oh! Yeah. Maybe it is.", she said with a frown.

    I looked at her and felt a little feverish again. How am I still so deeply into her and she isn't? Not even a bit?

    "You are something important", she added.

    "Almost– I am a word to you I wish you never said."

    ©Rae Pathak.

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    Her life was so full of almosts.

    "I am sorry. I almost remembered your birthday but then..."
    "I almost called you."
    "I almost missed you that night."
    "We were almost together."
    "I almost loved you."

    "You are something important", she added.

    "ALMOST– I am a word to you I wish you never said."


    ©Rae Pathak