You wish you could tell yourself 12 years after the death of someone you loved that the anniversary of there death gets easier. But does it really. When someone takes there own life it always leaves you wondering why. You ask yourself so many times if you could of did something to prevent it. But no. There gone and nothing you can do will bring them back. You would give anything to bring them back.
You would think after 12 years you would allow yourself to feel love again. But something is holding you back. You don’t want to leave yourself vulnerable again. So you stop dating. You stop putting yourself out there. You accept the fact that maybe you where ment to be alone.