To heal is to reopen the boxes bursting with the traumas of yesterday. To reopen the wounds that have been oozing with all of the pain over the years. The weight is tangible to the point of internal suffication; everything feels overwhelming; anxiety becomes ripe for the plucking; you begin to drown in the unsaid words and emotions never given the proper light of day. The process has begun, letting it all flow and feeling the entirety of the past. Unfortunately, there's no brilliant light to announce the healing is complete. It's more subtle, one day you'll awake and find the dark is finally balanced with the light.