I'm miserable I don't know if it's even tolerable. Suicide is considrrable. I'm trapped in my indecency . I have a tendency to deprived my self of sleep. Im an iinsomniac manaiac. I'm out of my mind. I don't want to be trapped in this misery . I want to burry my demonds alive. I want to survive through the misery cause I know there will be good days to come . But holding on to the past is like holding on to misery . It's all trapped in my memory. But I can't hold on to this misery no more.