Of course I never saw such a one before
"Was it my destiny?" No! It was our destiny.
Poor soul too scared to feel!
frightened to accept!
dared to express!
What if it turned to be a no!
Leaving everything behind!
Through the conversations that ran I got to know ...it was a futile battle
Battle to pursue him!
Rationally, logically, and practically!
But the one thing that pleased me was when he said 'I am not much of a talker! I like to listen'.
Probably because I LIKED TO TALK!
Everytime a converse ended with
"I'm making you bore!"
And then silent's reply
"No! Not at all"
-although I doubted Nd knew that it was a lie
Still managed to take it genuine!
Perfect combo was building up
Silent He,Scared Me!
Scared and tired
I was tired if asking myself that
"Am I special to him?"
Was that jealousy watching him taking to other guys...
I don't know
Or probably I do!
Lost in thoughts I sat beside
Waiting for him to say something but....
I had to start with a sorry!
Cause I thought he would cry if poked!
"What?" As if he paid any amount attention
I paused to think!
To think that why I said sorry?
And obviously answer that my heart which ruled the head gave was I don't remember!
"Why didn't you share anything?"
My voice comprising of plea and protest startled his thoughts!
Silence! Ominous silence followed!
But he left showing least concern!
I hate being cheated it being ignored!
But my thoughts didn't stopped
Heart continued to rule my head
When even you aren't able to make it out, believe me , your friends are able to!
My friend asked me "Did you?"
She had asked me the most stupid question.
Did I love him?
Did the earth go around sun?
Did a person dies?
Did night follows day?
But yes the answer was quite confusing
So it ended up with a grin
'Gone! You're gone! Your face gave me answer ' her words followed!
But I was too shy to share anything regarding
So ended up with silence!
Through the days that followed
I didn't got to listen his voice
Which sounded like music to my ears.
And I liked to talk!
So no talking!
I knew I seemed to loose importance
But still I wanted to stay
-which was impossible
I hate myself!
My anger lasts for a couple of seconds
And if you do something very bad to me
I would never leave you
I wouldn't even think of revenge....I hate it