I have watch myself love and get torn apart, over and over. And I remember thinking, when is this all going to end ? When will I be able to be confident enough to love someone again without feeling ashamed of myself ?? Because after each broken heart I'm not sure if I even want to fall in love all over again. Everyone seems to turn out the same way. And I have myself wondering what it is that could possibly be wrong with me. It's just a pattern. Everytime I end up loving turns out to be another mistake of mine. And it doesn't surprise me anymore. Because when these things happen all the time , they're is no longer a disappointed to me when I learn to expect them everytime.