Have you ever been in a moment where you can feel your heart hardening itself, like as if it's becoming stoned with every breathe you take? Have you ever felt so solid like a hard rock that it takes half of your energy just to utter an okay? Have you ever felt so desolate and lost, like you do not have a trace of idea how you got yourself there? Have you ever doubted if your heart is even beating? And all you can do is wonder how, and what the hell happened! "Where the fuck is the rhythm of that beat which used to drive my entirety!" is all you can scream out loud inside your mind. Is this how it feels to become cold and heartless? No, I never wanted this. I can't let myself freeze into this nothingness. Seeking for its cause and lying to myself that I'll be fine, I find hatred building up in me. Hatred for what and whom is blurry but that doesn't matter because I can feel my soul dipping into an ice cold world. And I have a bad feeling that it's never gonna melt again, ever again.