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    #3: N E W H O B B I E S

    You know how life has a funny way of turning "Wonderful" into "Worry-filled"??
    Nope??!
    Jump in! This is it!

    After being caged and handcuffed like that (which I must, no! Which I should, no! Which I OUGHT TO say was painful and uncomfortable as hell!), I felt a deeper connection with SAD (initially). Plus, to make me laugh she used a whip-like thing to tickle me!! So, long story short, we became inseparable!

    But, later on, there were some times (actually several times) when I couldn't spot danger and thus, wanted to roam free but SAD was over-concerned about me (just like my Dad) and over-reacted by frantically saying "No" (just like my Mom). I felt bummed!

    Also, I kinda got bored when SAD slept, as I was alone. That was when I found a new hobby - Overthinking! Why think about some small issue once, when you could think about it a million times? I mean, 1 million is DEFINITELY better than 1, right? It sounded like so much fun that I tried it out!
    Eventually, I found out that this new hobby was sometimes fun and sometimes (again, several times) a trouble-maker.

    As days passed, I started getting obsessed with this new discovery of mine and later on, it became one of my biggest addictions! And one day, as I was day-dreaming about hot guys.. Whoops! Wrong addiction! As I was saying, one day I was over-thinking as usual when I suddenly remembered how genuinely happy and fun I used to be as a child. I was my own princess! I used to be so proud of myself even when all I did was just be happy all day! I was the happiest girl and I was the best!
    But now...
    Now, I felt like trash waiting for someone to throw me out! That thought hurt me... A lot! I felt like dying inside.

    Besides, because of this whole JAIL situation, I was missing out on all the things that I loved with every ounce of my being and I was also missing out on many oppurtunities to do the things that I dreamt of doing as a child!

    But now that I was accustomed to this cage (for life.. I later found out), I felt way too afraid to do anything! I mean, what if someone smirked at me with contempt when I told them that my dream is to become an actor????? Thanks to the extra-powerful lenses that SAD bought for me, I was now able to see and identify even the smallest goddamn signs of danger!

    I let that thought go that day (which was a lot of effort btw). But you remember how addicted I was to over-thinking? So, it didn't take it too long for that thought to pop back in my head!

    But the second emergence of that painful thought was when things were finally starting to unfold..

    ©rain_n_koffee

    @simu_bittu, @strange_life, @ammuaye

    P.S. : I am sorry for the mistakes in this! I am not well right now, that's why!
    And I hope you are liking the series cuz it means A LOT to me!
    Thanks for reading!

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    Chapter 3: NEW HOBBIES

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