Am I really the only one that has their
demons feasting upon their very soul?
They say it is easy to tie a noose around
your mind and imagination..
And to overcome the urges and
temptations of ending your life in a jiffy...
They don't know the true pain and torment
that is going on inside my heart and mind..
A battle that leaves me with restless nights in bed
"End it already" they say, as they prey
on me during my weakest, darkest hours
Sometimes I want to give into the voices,
carrying the sharp blade to my wrist
Crying as I struggle to mutter three powerful
words that keeps me going "I am stronger!!"
Choking on my sobs, my lungs deflate
with a desire to say that God loves me
I try to convince myself that
God is trying to test my faith
And to just wait and wait
Then my Demons will one day
eventually go AWAY.....