And this next chapter that's calling me, that's luring me, I keep shoving it away...
This pain is so dear to me...how do I kill this soft part of me?
How do I kill this soft part of me that's weak to others?
How do I kill this part that's forever been me?
How do I kill this part that's all I have ever been?
How do I let this innocent, fragile part of me that I have always identified with..just die?
How can I say goodbye to this part of me that I know would forever change me and make me part of the larger crowd that once my ego smirked at?
How do I know that things would be sweeter if I embrace this next chapter?
How do I know that I won't suffer bigger pains and shames in this next chapter?
How do I know that I'm yet to hold onto and not let it go?
How do I know that I won't suffer the biggest loss to enter this next chapter?
How do I know that I won't be committing the biggest mistake of my life by entering this next chapter?
Standing on the verge........
To be or not to be...........
Oh! Life! My sweet, little life...
Why can't you be easy on me?
Why can't you just let it be?
Oh! Life! Please ease me into the process without letting me lose the essence of my innocence, my fragility, my core beauty...!
Please.....let me not be lost in the crowd...please let me not go so far that it isn't possible to retrace my way back...!
Give me the strength to move forward!
Give me the strength to be the guiding light for others and not be burnt by THEIR fire!
Give me the strength to honour my principles,
my values, my beliefs.
Give me the strength to be all that I am.
Give me the strength to be all that I can be with all the purity, sensibility, sanity, integrity, humanity in me!