As far as i can see it's all nothing but misery Darkness taking over my life acting monopoly Holding on tight gripping over me The lights are fading i'm losing my sanity And my soul is trynna break free It is all in vain and i see The world seems against me As i'm not following their philosophy Different and not the same I'm not insane but differently sane Lately i have been such a mess Provoking myself for things that are needles In pursuit of peace i have been so reckless
Gehraiyaan vo teri aankhon ki Dooba raha mein toh unme hi Dhundhli si vo yaadein teri Baatein vo mere dil ki Garmiya vo teri baahon ki vajah bani meri sanson ki Chehra tera vo dilnashi Mile sukoon dikhe jab bhi
Aaye na vo din kabhi Mit jayee jo yeh yaadein sabhi Aaye na vo din kabhi Naa bhulu tujhe mein kabhi Dhundu tujhe ab har jagah Par tujhsa mila na koi Kaash tu fir ho mera Ab naa jaaye mujhse dur kahi
As the sun started turning blonde from tangerine, it was a new dawn, The Scattering morning light through that cracked slit in the cottage me and my mother accommodate ourselves started falling on my sombre face and gradually I opened my eyes.
Like any other day, I was supposed to sit in the pouch my mother made out of her shredded and accompany her cause being too small I wasn't able to stay back on my own.
Since it was cottage there was nothing worth purloining in it, yet my mother covered the whole entrance with a big rock and checked it thrice daily before leaving, maybe because she didn't want my father to fade away in stars again.
Walking through the streets, she kept her hand made besoms on the head and held me with her other hand confirming my presence. She promulgated those besoms but nobody cared for buying them as they were unsanctified being made by her as she was a , but somehow she managed to earn me food, leaving me on the stairs of a temple, because her sexuality had nothing to do with her caste.
She sold herself to earn me food and I couldn't help her anyway cause that was the last day I saw her.
She never returned and I've been sleeping hungry every night on these stairs since that day.
I wish nothing but the best for you,even after everything you did to me. I'll always pray for your happiness.I'll always think about you once in awhile,even when you won't.
To me,you were The One, the kind of feeling you only get from one person,and the kind of love you only get once. You were that one and will always be.
You can't feel that kind of love twice,you really can't.
I just want to say,thankyou, Thankyou for making me so strong, Thankyou for making me feel like trash, Thankyou for making me feel always less, Thankyou for making me feel insecure about everything, Thankyou for giving me that hurt in the name of love, Thankyou for giving me trust issues, Thankyou for teaching me a lesson, Thankyou my tragedy, Thankyou my nightmare, Thankyou for leaving.
You see,you meet some people in life just to learn,they are just lessons.But these lessons that they teach you ain't small.These change you,inside-out,in every way possible. Their absence will hurt,but its just for awhile until you will start feeling better.
Its just how you look at it,we often see the negative side more than the positive one and thats where we go wrong.So for once,let's just think about it,they hurted you,betrayed you,did bad,lied and some left too but you got saved from the worse,yes you did.
Don't blame yourself,never blame yourself,Its not your fault that they left and don't let that shit turn you cold,because not everyone is here to leave,some will say,and make it so better,make you feel so alive,it will get better. Give it some time,it will.
But for now,smile,you are strong i know,and you can get through this,so what if you are alone, it won't be for long until your knight in shining armour comes to the rescue. -Gelukzoeker
ps-This is old..Like 3-4 months ago,I am not feeling any of this cause I got my knight I guess :) ❤