Letters to the world hidden under the floor boards.
Spiritual Power Outage
In the lightTHEY were createdTHEY livedTHEY worked and smiledThe light disappears and chaos became insteadIn the darknessTHEY were doomedTHEY hidTHEY slept and criedWE see in the dark for inside is lightDon't THEY know WE pray with our eyes closed anyway? WE are not afraid of the darkBut in the darkness those who fear search for those who have the light For THEY have been blinded and cannot see THEY look for us where THEY know we resideDriving past our churchesWalking pass us at work hoping to be noticedSometimes we fail to see their cries for helpWe miss their brokenSometimes those who are saved and who already have the light forget how it was to be left in the darknessLonely, vulnerable, and afraidThose with light must remember those in the dark We are here to gather the harvest for the Great WeddingDo not forget to look in the darknessFor WE are not afraid of a simple power outage©7paper_planes
Forgiveness in God
Everyday I make the same mistakesOn repeatLord you see me, you know what I do, what I didWhy would you still come back again? MercifulOne day I am blessed, the same day I sin againThere are thorns in my side, songs I can't hideThings I want to erase become imprinted on my faceWords can't be unwritten, I cannot unbreak the brokenNor find hope in things that are hopelessI can't even forgive myself for those things I am truly guilty ofI always think that I will fall back into them, these sinful ways So I purposely leave room in my sorrys for my sins to hide in and live on in Will you forgive me for this sin too?©7paper_planes
Something has happened to me and I can't seem to recover from itYet it's a common tragedyPeople walk around it everydayYet I've seem to have fallen inNot once has it happened but several times in the same momentAnd I still don't know what it isI don't get up I just lay thereI don't hurtI'm not in pain I just...am. And that seems worst than bleeding or running out of airAre you here too? Laying among broken things in the darkConfused and hoping And yet wishing for nothing all the sameDo you hear them calling your name but your body still refuses to acknowledge their longing of hurt and pain? Are you here too among the shattered and overturned? Do you even care? Do you even know that you're here? I can't see anyone else but I hear them I feel them but this room remains emptyAirless and weakHollow enough to see right through to the deep endWhere it's either so quiet or full of haunting screamsHeaven or Hell it seems But here in the in-between I can see both sides And I'm just here emptyWhile heaven rejoices and hell weepsI'm just here.©7paper_planes
"They say" series
Christians:Why try to find ways to make it easier to stay? We don't belong here anywayz. Let's just go home and invite others to come and stay.©7paper_planes
They just seem to always come around now Ever since I found my way back to my first loveThe devil sends out his attacksThose sneaky feelings of depression and deep lossThough nothing has even happenedThey find me every way I runLike a snake that waits for prey to get close enoughClose enough to happyA hidden snare is thereThey lurk about in the trees and lie and wait under fallen leaves To pounce and sink in their teeth That strong dark poisonSeeping inHeavy and numbingLike an old friend coming backpatting my shoulder pretending to care but only came to take my heart away againI'll cry at random times andIt feels so severe tooLike the strings holding my heart and soul in place Snap and break And my heart falls away disrupting my...everythingEverything I was ShatteredBy the strength it takes to stop holding back those mysterious and painful tearsI groanMy body moans and my soul screamsSomething...or everything inside me is breakingI emotionally and mentally die Yet physically have not even moved a muscleBesides to wipe the tears from my eyes or to grip my stomach as it feels it might fall openAnd then all too suddenly... It disappearsAs if having never been thereA dim dullness only remains My heart back in place No more noise Just a quiet that seems too strangeBut I am together In one pieceBut in the back of my mind I know something is broken or missing But I never have enough time to dwell on it to examine what it was that I've lostBecause happy is still waiting for me to find herI'm just afraid that when I do finally finally find her that that thing I couldn't identify before will crawl out from behind those trees and bite my heel*** Yet even though I might stumbleIt was already foreseen I will crush its head©7paper_planesGenesis 3:15And I will cause hostility between you and the woman, and between your offspring and her offspring. He will strike your head, and you will strike his heel.”
It has been a long time but I've just now remembered who I've always wanted to beThe world was just moving too fast I got caught up in who I was becoming and not who I wanted/needed to beHer presence felt the most strong when I was asleep Dreaming of things thought to be impossible in realityI watched her there And her words were power in that place her thoughts and ideas were real There. She wasn't afraidShe was peaceShe was freeWhen I awoke to reality she was on display in a beautiful cageLocked away Like everyone saw her but really only what they wanted to seeLike each person was looking at one piece of the puzzle but when you step back it's a whole other thing entirelyBut at night in her dreams The field of imagination became realityShe was in a way still trapped... Layed down and unable to move Arms bond and legs tiedYet heart loosedEven still they couldn't reach her in her dreamsThere was a way to escape death and also lifeNeither alive and not yet deadIn a sleep. In a dream.©7paper_planes
How long has it only been you?
Empty rooms and torn pages Echoing whispers and made up facesLoneliness wasn't real until I wanted something newIt was just reality for me and I knew it tooBut one day I woke up from a dream and realized I wanted to share my depth with someone other than just meBut I was rejected by allThey pushed me away and broke my faceSaid I'd be alone foreverTo just accept my fateThat's when I realized "loneliness" As it was in its true stateIt was always just a way of life it was apart of me but then It became separate from me and I began to despise itWhen something is apart of you you don't see it as unnatural It's naturally of youSo when I no longer felt loneliness as my friend I broke my trance and ranBut when I took the chance no one took my handI knew what I wanted and was told I couldn't have itI lost myself and my descend had begun Love became all I ever wanted but I couldn't reach itIt became my thoughts all day and it woke me up and put me to sleepIt even followed me into my dreams This thing...loveLasting and trueYet only I could never keep it in view longer than a few moments that were sacred by heavy looksLike painful memories to broken people Or like fallen leaves to tree branches Love never wanted meI could never really call it mineI always had to sacrificeWait. Or give it time. When I finally receive it it fleas like the sound of those sweet nothings in the breezeWhy does everything I love always get taken away? And even still I'm forced to watch others receive what I long for everydayI will never hear any one ask me How long has it just been you? Because it will always be. No one will ever approach me because I want it too muchSo it'll stay the sameEmpty rooms and torn pages Echoing whispers and made up facesLoneliness wasn't real until I wanted something newIt TRULY IS just reality for me©7paper_planes
You Wouldn't Know
You wouldn't know that it is better to Tell me ugly truths then to tell me beautiful liesIt's better to bring pain then to allow me to feel your gentle embrace.I need you to yell at me instead of bringing soothing quietBecause that would make me comfortable and I don't need nor deserve it.If you ever want to leave please rip your hands from me rather then making them linger....or I'll remember them and their imprintsHave anger with me rather then leaving me with sweet memoriesBecause I can't take them with me when I go. You wouldn't know that it is better to leave me wondering rather then having me remember and wanting more.Just tell me when you begin to hate me because it is better for you to just turn away from me at once...then to have you stay and walk around with a strange face knowing I'm not what you want.Leave me at once don't try to hold out the incoming pain.Let me feel it all at one timeI PROMISE.I'll be fine.It's good for you to create new wounds then to try and fix my already tarnished skin.Make new pain for me to suffer through. Don't try to fix what's been broken with age.It's wasteful anyway.You wouldn't know that doing these things makes us..okayIf you were to do sweet things and say nice things....then leaveI would miss you forever and never fall in love again....I'd be ruined and I'd regret it.But if you treat me bad then leave me mad I'll feel as if you didn't deserve me and that everything that happened didn't hurt me and I'll have a chance to move on and change, become better than ME.But I would never tell you this to contain your happiness sooo...You still wouldn't know. Me.©7paper_planes
I'm in pain today So my handwriting is ugly Long strokes and sharp cornersMy words become like daggersNot smooth and gentle instead pointy and rigged Heavy are my hands as each word bleeds from the inkIt's always the same In pain everydayYetYesterday I hid it so wellBut today the bruises have risen to the surfaceReds and purples paint my broken skinWhat's even worse? I don't know why I'm in painIt's dull and numbing And without originAll I know is I can't hide it Not nowI can't smile over itI can't pretend So today you can seeIf you look just once you'll finally see meOut in the openHer truth spokenTodayI'll truly be me You'll see the dried up streamsThat carried heavy storm waters away from her eyes and toward her straining heart as it screamsHer eyes are so tiredBut they won't let her sleepWon't let her dream of better thingsNot even those seas of sweet nothings... Where is my happy ending?
I watch you as you carry your lonely bones around.I witness the strength it takes to actually lay your body down. As you take the coat off your back I always pray that the weight of the world is removed from your shoulders too.Tidal waves and mighty winds is all it took to break you and make you cave in.And when you break down you can't breatheSo I offer you the oxygen out of my own chest but youDeny any rescueCertain you'll save yourself.Please be carefulBreathe easy for meBefore you leave out the door you make sure to put your mask on first. Hiding behind other people's simple lives.But not with meI won't let it be.No I don't wanna talk about myself Just tell me where it hurtsInstead of heavy storms I'll bring a gentle breeze and calm waters.Once I heal your bones and fix your smile then maybe one day I'll try working on myself.After I love youI'll learn how to somehow feel love for myself.It'll be just us two...Forces to be reckoned with._inspired by a song*Sleeping at last-Two©7paper_planes