I watched what time does to the pendulum swings, playing god in between the watch hands, here I am stuck in this infinite maze, going back and forth weaving all the broken words into this poem. my DeLorean broke, stuck in a paradox. failed verses, scarring my insanity in voids saw the passing clouds up above, playing their immortal insomnia. I'm just a failed time machine watching her slip away every single time. I can hear each second clicking by reminding me of all the failed futures. all my failed prophecies. Even after a million tries, it's still the same. all the infinite probabilities collapsing the same way, maybe it's all written in the stars.
my flawed mundane story
"Do you believe in soul mates?" Some student in the front row asked me. She was looking at me like I knew all the answers. I am lost like everyone else, maybe more. If you were to ask this question a few years back, I would have smacked your head with this book and talked some sense into your tiny brain. But it's not the case. "Maybe, why'd you wanna know?" "Sometimes quantum entanglement feels like a fairy tales of two soul mates, don't you think?" Maybe the most innocent minds know the most interesting questions. Answering that question is not that easy anymore. Life is all messed up now, the more I try to untangle the knots, the more complicated it gets. I can't tell the difference between right and wrong, everything seems so relative and there are no right answers or wrong ones. The world is whatever you wanted it to be, except for somethings. Somethings never change, no matter what. Maybe that's the whole idea behind life.
I just smiled at her. I have a class to complete. Actually, I don't. I'm not sure what am I doing here. I keep coming back to these moments trying to write a new story thinking this time it ends in a way I imagined. We all want things that don't belong to us. So drunk on the idea that in the end love can save us all. I've seen a million worlds, the collapse of a million probabilities, trying to play God in places where I don't belong.
Time, it's a funny little thing. Trying to explain the time to a classroom never gets old. Talking about all the million possibilities and watching how each moment defines who and what we are. I know its more than these quantum mechanics experiments and math equation that makes people wonder. Time has a life of its own, slowly weaving million tales and million plays and watching everything from a distance. I've watched how causality gives birth to realities, not just one, but a billion possibilities. Even watching all of that it still makes no sense to me, the meaning of all this. Is it really symmetrical or its something else? Is it the causality or the retrocausality that defines the way everything works. I tried to untangle the past present future paradox, even after a million tries something never changes. I looked at the clock, its time to leave the class and find my way back to her place.
I laughed at myself for looking at the clock, but it keeps my insanity at bay. Streets almost look the same, few new frames and some new characters. When you travel through all the possible realities trying to find the right one, all these little details feels like voids. Its the destination that matters. But I like these long walks, to watch her slip away every single time. I tried to change all the little variables, still, my prophecies failed.
Then why am I here? Maybe following the drunken dreams of a madman. Maybe I'm still high on the very thought of losing her. I've already seen it in colors, all the infinities showing me the same story, she in his hands dancing to Yiruma in the background. Maybe this is what they meant by soul mates, stories written in the stars from the very beginning. I think I lost the hope a long time ago, still, here I am, watching my heart breaking down into tiny little infinities all over again.
Then I saw her, packing bags and wiping tears.
Every writer is a time traveler. Trying to write new endings and reliving the past moments. Closed eyes, watching how all the frames fit together. Maybe that's what writing is all about, defying the mundane laws and traveling through space and time creating alternate realities as we go. Flawed beings we are, yet the broken pens and inked realities creating masterpieces together.
Look at what we've done in 3 seconds, to our home. Home to 7.6 billion people, 8.7 million different species, trees, rivers, rocks, mountains and more.
Earth, perfectly spaced tiny dot in all the cosmic chaos, giving birth to us. Keeping us safe, helping us to grow and dream, to explore the vast emptiness in the sky. We are looking at the stars to find the meaning to all of this. The sky is the limit they said, but here we are building spaceships to take us to the places we never even dreamed of. Building space station in Moon and Mars to asteroids, helping us to find a new home. Wait, aren't we forgetting something? What about this home? The one, where it all began. Oh yeah, we are killing it piece by piece. Killing the planet or killing ourselves?
You all know the story, the big bang, gravity, earth, evolution, Darwin... Bang! here we are. And if you don't know the story, then I think it's time to stop staring at other people's life on social media and start reading for a change.
Some may say that the planet is dying, I don't think so. Its "US", we are dying. We are too blind to see it, even after all these warnings. The funny thing is, there is a huge number of the population who still thinks that all this is a big conspiracy to stop development from happening and you know exactly what I'm talking about. Build a billion dollar wall to stop a few illegal immigrants, let's see what it can do when hurricanes hit, or an earthquake or a tsunami. Not just this, there are other PMs, presidents and influential people who are totally ignorant about the current scenario about pollution.
There are 7.6 billion people on this planet. And we have enough resources to feed them properly, but there is a huge imbalance in the resource distribution. The rich are getting richer and poor poorer. From multinational corporations trying to take away our right to clean water, who knows, maybe one day we'll end up paying money for breathing air.
We are way too busy fighting over nothing and choose to cover our ears and eyes to run away from the truth. How long are we going to run and hide away from our doings? We polluted our planet, filling our air and water with chemicals. Pure water and the air is everyone's right. Not just for humans but for every single being on this planet. Yet, the global climate change is at its peak. Carbon dioxide footprint in the atmosphere is increasing at an alarming rate, resulting in making our planet more warmer. Polar ice is melting, sea levels are rising, if this keeps up, all major cities will be under water within a few years. The aftermath of global warming. It's easy to ignore this and pretend we are having a great time, but we are not.
All those factory chimneys used to be a prestigious symbol of the industrial era, but now they are our constant reminder of a fucked up greedy development methods. We are cutting down the forest, polluting the water bodies with chemicals and plastic wastes. The ocean is a big wastebasket for us now, from plastic wastes to oil spills. We all know what happened in Chernobyl, Bhopal, Deepwater Horizon to Minamata disease and itai-itai disease. Even after all those environmental disasters, we still haven't learned a thing.
There are about 1 billion people in the world who does not have access to safe drinking water.
About 500 people die every day from drinking unclean water.
Pollution kills more than 1 million seabirds and 100 million mammals every year.
150-200 species of plant, insects, birds, mammal extinct every single day. That's 1000 times the natural rate. This rate is alarmingly large, greater than the world has ever experienced since the vanishing of dinosaurs 65 million years ago. YES, THE NEXT MASS EXTINCTION IS AT OUR DOORSTEP.
Smog, acid rain, drought, flood, unpredictable weather, new diseases, genetic disorders, cancer, destroying the whole economy, poverty, war, social conflicts... Everything is different symptoms of the same disease, US. I don't like where this is heading now, even there are different laws and regulations to keep the pollution down, I don't see anything working out. We all know how Kyoto protocol has worked so far.
But I have hope in humanity. Millions are awakening, a new generation more united and stronger than ever before is coming out from the shadows of greedy corporations. It's empowering to know more and more people from all around the world are working together to create a better world. It is our duty to write a perfect history of our planet, our ancestors created a mess, but we can build a better world for our children. Everyone has an equal right to food, water, and air. In order to make it a reality, we have to work together. We need artists, politicians, leaders, engineers, doctors, teachers, everyone to make it a reality.
I need you and you need me, like it or not we are a family. We are connected genetically, we want the same thing. Like the Goldilocks theory, we are not a mistake, we are perfectly placed cosmic wonder. Let's kill our ego and greed and stop killing each other. Mother nature does not care about your color or religion or your politics or whether your rich or not, if the big extinction comes, it'll take us all. It's late but not too late for a change, so be the change this time, not like caring about our environment only on an environmental day, but take it as a lifestyle.
Let's do justice to our name this time, Homosapiens, wise men.