I was in SM (star maker) since last week I found a new guy who's old than me He caught my attention,, on the day that I joined their room on Star maker While they Are throwing questions to those who lost in dice ,,,on that day I started following him and I don't expect that he would follow back me... He chat me to follow him on thier room To join them on singing... I was happy that day And I don't even feel lonely I am just happy ... On the thing that I want to follow him wherever he was... I want him to chat me always .... Started that day we became friends.. Telling stories Laughing And then suddenly I feel something special. On the second day ... Saturday morning ,,when I was awake I suddenly seek him on my chatbox at Star maker longing that he would chat me. Atlast,,,I found it right ,,I'm so happy I don't know why ,,, And then I ask him,,if he could be mine?? He laughed and say""if you would scourt me,,then I will be yours"" Actually he is 36 years old while I am 20 years old..he was very very good on singing that I could not stop listening him...
After that day ,,,it's Sunday night again I ask him if he like me too , He said"yeah I like you,,but how should we became together if we are in LDR..and one thing is ,, there would be girls ,,that will get angry on me if they know about us""
But I say""I love you and I would fight for it" Then he say "you should court me now,,or else they would get me " Then I do what he say I say""Parekoi,,if I court you do I have a chance, Answer me or I will kill you"" he laughed too much and say,, ""You are different from the other girls I saw You are so amazing,,""syempre I would say YES I don't want to die but seriously I would say YES. But we should hide it because if they caught us they would get angry....
And I deal what said .. Untill this day This Monday The first day that I've own him Everything was ruin on me I follow him on thier room I saw how crazy the girls when it comes on him I feel jealous ..I feel something that I can't explain ,,,I was hurt. .. But I tried to be strong I tried to not affected But I can't I leave on their wall And I chat him.
"Parekoi ,,I could not take this anymore"" I'm hurt..,""
He replied.. "Parekoi,, don't be jealous I already told it right .. sorry " But I can't stop my feeling right now I was hurt too much I don't know Untill he say that For me he would take a distance
The way he said that my heart was melt My tears suddenly fallin I can't stop the pain inside I was crying
And I ask my self
Why should I cry those man that I've never seen..??
Why should I feel too much hurt for it??
I am me Ms.Jella there are so many boys who want me but why??
I told him to please give me a chance to adjust I told him to please don't leave me this day.. Not now??!!!
...urgggg,,, I was tired I would take a rest cause untill now I didn't know why I FEEL THIS UNBELIEVABLE FEELING TO THOSE PERSON I'VE EVER MEET..
but before I leave ... I would say... That were okay right now I just can't believe why I'm feeling it right now I don't feel on my past life just now!!!!