Something about today that's different. Maybe it's the air, or the scent of a certain conditioner she used in her hair. A smell I can never forget, the only thing I regret. Was not showing her, how much she meant to me. I try to forget. Shes gone now, and we are apart for miles. But that doesn't stop me from remembering, which were all worth while. Yes, I still smile, when i think about you. And sometimes i occasionally dream about you. In the day, in the night, when I'm at work, or fixing my cars. Specially when I'm the only one, at the bar. Il put a coin in the jukebox, in honor of your name. I'll play the songs, that dont help the shame. Il tell the bar tender, our story, and your name. I'll sing the songs with charisma, I ain't ashamed. Sorry it took soo long, to end our waiting game. It would really kill you, to see me like this. To see me at a low, that you couldn't contradict. Which is why I cut it off, like I did. I hope you read this, just to know.It wasn't you, it was us. As much as we had, the love, and trust. We just couldnt stop pointing the finger, at both of us. So il go ahead and keep hiding, behind this smile. And I'll try to make it, everyone's worthwhile. I still have a heart, that stretches for miles. Someday, oneday, maybe someone will appreciate me, and stop all my trials. That i often have bottled inside me, but one things for sure. You'll never catch me without, my smile.