Quotes and poetry by arhamadnan

More of me

It's been a long time
Since, I lost control
I am stuck, hopelessly
Witnessing myself
Repeating helplessly
The Insanity
I am madness
Madness is me

I don't feel so good
The guilt is killing me
What should I do
Is it too late to change
Work on my insanity
Perhaps
Find a scapegoat
Project my reality
Perhaps

So what if I am dead
I want to kill now
Create an army
Train them, and how
Gaslight them real hard
Make them question
Their own reality
And if they strike back
I ll tag them as the crazies
I am not the only one
You are as deranged as me
Welcome to the club
Welcome to the family
I did my part
Now I can compare
And sleep peacefully
It doesn't seem so sad
When there are more of me

©arhamadnan

arhamadnan 1w

Prt 3

It's not all bad, really
Come on, now, dude
Let's watch a movie
Then discuss endlessly
The complicated plot
Dude, seriously
Alright man, Alright
You don't have to shout
How about we
Quote and requote
Someone else's thoughts
Come up with witty replies
In a strangers comment box
Hurl slanders and abuses
Till the self feels better
And make random excuses
On someone else's behalf
Still feeling insecure
Strike back with a taunt
And blur the reality
Escape this regular haunt
Maybe, momentarily
Is this peace, yes, finally
Duping myself, gladly
Wish it was that easy

©arhamadnan

arhamadnan 1w

Prt 2

Why do I even need
This intricate tool
If I don't really know
What is it's real use
Well, people usually
Spend it in a school
Maybe, I should too
How can all these guys
Be wrong at the same time
Millions of minds
Being fed the same diet
At least, we, in this together
It feels safe, It feels right
Yay, to the sheep power
In delusion, we thrive
Must sacrifice to the matrix
Every second of my life

So, now I am hooked
To this invsible situation
They got me by the throat
Now I am solving equations
On multiple whiteboards
I don't see the point, though
Everybody is happy
Is all I want to know
Man, this is hardwork
Must relax and enjoy
Give in to the music
Maybe, Netflix and chill
But first, let's upload a few
million stories, snaps and stills
And update statuses on
Five different apps
Maybe, spread awareness
On social issues and gaps
Force feed each other's lives
With our stuff, so amazing
Everyone wants to speak
Who cares about listening

©arhamadnan

arhamadnan 1w

Prt 1

My mind feels blank, now
Doesn't really do much
Tries to survive, somehow
Kick death in the face
Like, Kapow!!!
Yeaah, yeaaah, I know
Somehow nothing else
Rhymed right now
Another Kapow!!!
Oops, did it again
Anyways, moving on
What was I talking about
Ohh yeah
Something deep and profound
Here goes nothing
Clueless dumb hounds

All the cheers for
The age of science
The age of glib thoughts
And the rejection of divine
I am sorry, dude
But, I need to see it
To believe it
Till then, I will try everything
To get over this
Deep seated feeling
And find my medication
In material manifestations
My one dimensionality
Isnt' helping this situation
Can only fathom the physical
No different from an animal
Eat, sleep, entertain, breed
Setting it on infinite repeat

©arhamadnan

arhamadnan 2w

This is where it all began
When we had a choice
Could have refused then
But we said 'Yes'
To be a conscious creation
To play a free willed agent
And risk it all, for a shot
At eternal glorification
It was obvious, I guess
I mean, boundless ambitions
Right from day one

The bounties of heaven
Or the horrors of hell
Forget about the latter
Heaven is my desire
But, what if I fail
Maybe our emotions
Got the best of us
Blinded by the lights
Maybe yes, Maybe not
Oh wait, Sorry, I Forgot
We are Humans
That's what we do
That's all we are about

So, Anyway
Hope trumped fear
Aspirations prevailed
Cheers to our determination
We officially entered a war
Our bodies are the battleground
The enemy is our own thoughts
This life, our sacrifice
The perfect examination
To justify this existence
Only humans in their arrogance
Can risk eternal damnation

But, when you think about it
It kinda makes sense
To fashion us like this
With desires and freewill
Then reveal the instructions
The road to infinity
Is paved with limitations
The greatest of freedoms
Is achieved through restrictions
Be willing to lose everything
To receive true fulfilment

You want to be a king, yes you do
It's inbuilt and it's alright
Your kingdom is due
You don't need a degree
To figure out the clues
And win the prize
You just need to prioritize
What's on the inside
And realize the creator
And the creation
Let your soul be the witness
Of your gratitude and submission

©arhamadnan

arhamadnan 4w

Hey, bud, welcome to my world
Where you from, planet perfect?
Wherever you're from
Better watch your back
It's survival of the fittest here
Don't expect much
We don't care about credibility
We throw around words, casually
One day you are the greatest
Next, you're less than dust, easily

We let others decide
When our time is up
In love with what we know
Spend time hating the obscure
Make up stories in our head
Either we live in denial
Or are idiotically too sure
Born in comfortable tombs
Entitled to be insecure
So we create pretend wombs
How else are we supposed to cope
Think, reflect maybe even ponder
All ways of the past
We 'just do it' and scream louder

We say what feels best
Our emotions beats logic
They travel pretty fast
Retreat, even faster
Hysterical, one moment
Unfazed, the one after
Maybe a part of me
Wants to be done with
This existential circus
The unnecessary theatrics
All these fools, acting all serious
In their make believe worlds
All scared and nervous
Justifying their purpose

I am tired, I am exhausted
In this pursuit of happiness
I feel crippled and inadequate
To even make sense of this madness
I guess I ll base it on proximity
Follow the ones, close to me
Great approach, seems 'strong'
What if they have got it all wrong
Stop making my head hurt, please
This rant or whatever, is way too long
I can't delve into this reality frenzy
I can't part with my fancy parties
These short lived, feel good orgies
Just let me be, till I am at least sixty
I ll start then, like a little baby
Confused and irritated
All I achieved already faded
Here I am now, spent and jaded

Just a little teaser, dude
Got a bit carried away, maybe
Anyway
Don't get too scared
We are what makes it fun
Every single one of us
We all have our scripts
We are all sociopaths
Past, future, presently, maybe
We are all on the podium
And our rank is first
Nothing compares to us
No book, no movie, no play
We are 'The Greatest Show on Earth'

©arhamadnan

arhamadnan 4w

Lonely, Sad, Insecure, Afraid
Slowly and Gradually
All my make-believes failed
Sometimes, I get a little taste
Right here in this world
Of that final despair
Reserved for judgement day
Distract me, Drug me, please sedate
I ll try everything, I ll try anything
Until my false Gods break
Let's just hope that it's not too late

The uncertainties of the world
Certainly led us astray
Our personal coping mechanisms
Being manipulated everyday
One day we are righteous
Hypocrites, the next
These voices inside me
Got me all perplexed
I can't handle the whole deal
I ll cherrypick the pleasure
I will fashion my own fate
I am my own holy book
Which I alone translate
We manipulate it in our heads
We don't change the actual text
I guess, that makes us better
From the other two heavyweights
Don't you dare disagree
Else, I ll show you the gate

We hate on whom we love
And appreciate what we hate
Hate might hurt us for real
Love is just an aftertaste
We don't choose what's right
We choose the right face
We choose our poison
And call it the elixir of life
We choose our fights
We dictate the weak
Are enslaved by the might
Well Done, humans
I guess it's only right
Do what you have to do
To struggle and survive
What a lost cause
What an aimless life

©arhamadnan

arhamadnan 5w

Ohhh, dearly beloved
Why aren't you being missed
Were you ever there
To begin with
A figment of thought
Lazy imagination, perhaps
Did you even leave
Should I feel sad
What do I let go
Nothing to hold on to
After or before

Why can't you ever be
somebody to anybody
Your existence was irrelevant
Maybe I was worth your while
What are you even living for
Just give it all up and die
Just kidding, or am I
You are just a fancy name
Only truth among all the lies
I can't even describe you
No matter, how hard I try

Your carnal obsessions
Eclipsed all faculties
Your thoughts were rotten
Repetitively simplistic, often
Dead eyes, empty smiles
Souless pitch dark skies
Blood red unicorns
Lighting the clouds alight
With the fuel, that is, your life
Being used and burned
In your imaginary plight

©arhamadnan

arhamadnan 6w

A mix, A balance
You know not
When meta becomes reality
So then, reality becomes what
Do you begin to levitate
Above all these robots
Imagine, zero gravity
Mentally or metaphorically
Pun intended, clap now, please

As you seek
You shall receive
HE decides
What you deserve
A new way, A new world
Feel it to believe it
Maybe, You don't get it, yet
Stop with the guesswork
You don't know what's
out there, yet
Think every moment
Revise your lives

Your brain only gets
What you can process
What you thought was all
Was nothing even less
Rethink maybe recheck
Will I ever overcome
this persistent stress
I ran all my life
after this man-made dress
All I am left with now
are complaints and regrets

So, let me close my eyes
Let me live my life
All these thoughts
are distractions and lies
I was sent here to shut up
and enjoy
So yeah just okay
Just let me be
Mind your own ways
I have got enough
make-believe woes
I just want to be happy
And, I will be happy, as long as you
don't compose
I will be happy as long as you
shut up and bow
I will be happy as long as
'I don't know'
I will be happy
I will be happy
As long as I get to wear
"The Emperor's New clothes"

©arhamadnan

arhamadnan 6w

You are afraid
To go against,
Trusting in what
You have been told
By people like you
Or even worse
A bunch of people
And their personal rules
Being treated like the law
A society without a flaw

What you see all around
Is what you want to see
The rest of your life
Living in basic continuity
A safe haven community
It maintains order
Whatever it may be
Never bothered
To try and scratch
What's really underneath

Everyone trying hard
To fulfill their fantasy
Lying and pretending to be
What others want them to be
Only to portray some sort of
Make believe harmony
Rotting on the inside
Slowly and gradually
But I guess it's alright
As long as I can afford
Whatever I have been told
By people who were told
Who themselves were told
By the ones who came before
And so on and so forth
Whose names nobody even asks
And noone will ever know
But I know this for sure
Whatever it may be
It might make me whole
Forever in the running
To achieve that goal

Your feelings are true
But your ways are wrong
You ask the right questions
But your teachers are flawed
They makes tall claims
They themselves are dwarfs

You are unable to see
And you are gouging eyeballs
You can't even stand straight
And you want others to fall
You are in it way too deep
You can't even see the line
The line is a dot
Yes, I reference 90's sitcoms
Don't you 'like' know me at all

Yeah hmmm alright okay
Do whatever you please
Your existence is troubled
And you are dabbling in peace
Holding on to petty things
Wearing trendy or eating right
Gollums of the world
'Your precious' is worthless
In the afterlife
Gollum!!! Wait what No way
Is this related to 'Ghulaam'
In any way

Well, anyways
You don't know any better
How can you decide
What about other options
Deceived by the pre conceived
You never gave it a try

©arhamadnan