aurtave

I'm tired of it all.

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  • aurtave 43w

    Dark

    The darkness is my closest ally can't you see? It grows and flows as adrenaline that is pumping through me! You did this, You made me believe! That i could trust you, YEAH PLEASE! A single thought of you now is betrayal and this flame burns deep inside ME! I'm urging, but oh let me try to seek justice for wrongs against me. Every single person turns the blind eye on everything that I need! Whenever I try to fix other's mistakes I'm the bad guy, so why should I even attempt to even justify all that my heart cries? Its pointless! I should be more forgiving and trusting but instead that's broken. You can fuck it now, you're expecting it to change or instead you're hoping, that I'd find the heart within me to end your suffering. But I'll tell you like I told my first ex. If you're looking for sympathy just know its gone, I brushed it off with a cold shoulder since you did me this wrong.
    ©aurtave

  • aurtave 43w

    Normal

    Normality is overrated, and reality is ever changing. The only difference between yours and mine is I don't wear my scars. There's no room on my body for every one of them that I've acquired so far. But if you look deep inside, past the barbed wire and the picket fence of iron, you'll see that I too have those dark desires. Even though vengeance is not a choice I will still wear it on my sleeve. Like a rose vine of only thorns and leaves, wrapped in twine. I'm coming for you next, you've already made your bed. But don't be surprised late at night when that bed becomes all that you despise. I hope the first and last memory of me is made for your demise... Your coffin's made, now close your eyes.
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  • aurtave 43w

    #opinion #don'tchangeme

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    Mists at sea

    Going with the tide has more than one meaning. You're either in the riptide, or you're going down a stream. The moon itself has control over your life as it does the water. Will you let the seasonal spikes tear you apart, or will you become one with the tide? Choose wisely, though it may seem useless you're made to be, of more than this. You're on your cycle, and you can speak your opinion, but when I tune into mine, don't speak. Just listen, and let me unwind. After all, we all were once on this wild ride.
    ©aurtave

  • aurtave 43w

    We don't forget

    I'm coming down from this high that you call life. The only difference this time is I'll be smarter with my strategy, the very next time I meet someone like you, I'll be ready.
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  • aurtave 43w

    Fiend

    I hurt, its not a physical hurt.. But a hurt that's within. Its not very noticeable, but it surely will pierce my skin. The world goes to war, people create conflict, but not one of these will know how it is when words stick. 'Pain' doesn't know pain when it's put to the test, Pain only wants what's best. Who knows what's the best thing? when all my problems come from everything I see, after people say what's best for me. Repeated words you say to me, but tonight you count your words you waste on me. Because when the morrow comes I will be gone, gone like the winter breeze. The next place you will see me is in your dreams.
    ©aurtave

  • aurtave 43w

    Amazing

    I really feel like people say I'm amazing just to leave. I hear it 20 times a day and still I dont understand the speech. But fuck it i understand enough to know that I'm just drifting. I'm piecing together the past the more that I'm existing.. I dont understand why I'm so imbalanced, I say I want something and its the complete opposite. All in all I just want to fit in, fuck it I'm just everyone's friend. Honestly I didn't really think of my actions, I just thought of the addiction. And I believe I didn't mention, that I'm not as hollow as I'm pretending. I want to be happy I really want to, but instead im trapped in all these feelings and I dont know what to do. I fuck up many times then turn the leaf, and I watch as all of my sins seep through from underneath. I can change one day, I really think i can, but from me to you I don't think I'll be a better man. I could be a shell of my past self, while I'm just sitting here broken on this shelf like zippy the elf. I honestly do feel I want a girl, I just cant deal with all the bullshit that comes with her. Like it goes from all these fucking games and lies and cheating too, to me sitting in the cage with bleached eyes and a knife peeling through. I'm not insane, or maybe just a little. But I'm smart enough to know that I'm nothing but someone's fiddle.. It stings to know that a person could feel so little, shit or is my head too big to know how to become simple?.
    ©aurtave